This post goes out to a very special motorcycle jacket wearing lady. (And to my former self who really needed to hear it but refused to listen).
Hey you there! The uber independent who does not need a man. You are tough as nails. You will not let a boy hurt you again ever. You cut them off before they even have a chance to hurt you. You can rip them to shreds with a few comments and a discerning stare. You've got it all figured out!
Here are the benefits of shutting yourself off to the possibilities of a true loving relationship:
1) You don't have to compromise. On anything. Never again are you forced to sit through 20 hours of South Park. Or put up with their asshole friend who comes over for dinner and acts like a pig. YOU WIN.
2) You don't have to worry about what he's thinking about you. Because you don't give a shit.
3) You are completely in control of your relationship with your friends - there is no boyfriend who changes you in a way you can't see. You know ... when you start seeing someone and you have no idea how lame you've become to your friends. NEVER FEAR. That doesn't happen when you are emotionally unavailable!
4) No vegetable state like year that occurs post break up. You will not go around with a vacant look in your eye because you can't produce tears anymore, staring out at the abyss and wondering why you ever chose to love. LUCKY YOU, since there is no relationship, there is no breakup and THERE IS NO SADNESS.
5) You get to tell off any woman that suggests that you would be more complete in a relationship. SHE'S A FOOL. SHE DOESN'T GET HOW AWESOME AND COOL AND POWERFUL YOU ARE.
And then here's the realities ....
1) EVERYONE and I mean EVERYONE can see your defense strategies a mile away. You are in fact, fooling no one.
2) Being in a relationship and being a strong, smart, independent woman are not mutually exclusive.
3) All guys are not your ex boyfriend. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat.
4) There are nice guys. And don't give me that BS. You actually KNOW nice guys! You're literally surrounded by them. And they get hurt just as badly as you do.
5) You will never be hurt as badly as you were before. I swear. The first cut is the deepest. After that you have this neat little reminder that life goes on and you will be happy again.
6) The guy who is right for you doesn't deserve to be punished for what happened before. He's not the one that hurt you - he wants to love you. Give him a freaking chance.
7) You are too wonderful to keep to yourself. Really. And deep in your heart you know it too.
8) You learned a lot from your failed relationships. You grew and became a better person. You are more equipped to handle an adult relationship than you were last year. And with every encounter you are continuing to become more of the person your future love of your life will be with. I swear!
9) Nothing in the world compares to that feeling you get when you truly share yourself with someone - mentally, emotionally and physically. And you deserve all of those things.
10) If you were a dude, I'd date you. So there!
And please!!! For all of you that know me in real life. When I am in the k-hole, remind me of my own blog post because I'm going to need it.
Friday, October 29, 2010
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Collected Wisdom
These are the things that I believe based on 28 years of breathing:
- Wine tastes better shared with friends
- Sports become more interesting when you watch them with a group of loud, semi belligerent fans (preferably with chests painted)
- If you're paying the bills then you don't have to make your bed
- 99% of sitcoms are not funny
- There is never a "right time" to be broken up with or to break up. It always sucks.
- If you think of an idea of something that would be nice to do but never actually do it - you don't get credit for it (this applies maybe only to my ex boyfriend who forever would ask for "credit" for thinking to get me flowers but not getting them)
- No matter what anyone tells you, the Cubs will lose. Horrifically. Don't have any faith in them.
- If you're fourth and inches ... GO FOR IT.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Am I an adult?
A list of arguments for and against if I am an adult.
GOD DAMN YES I am an adult ....
No ::::weeping::: I'm a CHILD
GOD DAMN YES I am an adult ....
- I pay all of my bills on time, I am never EVER late with my bills.
- I keep track of all my expenses on Quicken, like a badass. I even have monthly charts to show me where my expenses are going so I can budget accordingly. I am one lean mean financially stable machine.
- I like myself. Not every day but in general. This is a key step in realizing you are old enough to handle your own shit.
- I have an adult job. I manage an employee. High level people depend on me and know that I will come through. I have marketable skills ($$$). There is career growth in my future.
- I feed and clothe myself. I go to the doctor and dentist on regular intervals.
- I rarely watch tv. Most of my tv habits are when I'm going to someone else's house but I actually only follow Mad Men right now.
- I own an espresso machine.
- I can pull together a delicious meal for company when I want to.
- I have finally stopped moving around the country in search of the perfect city to call a home. I found my home.
No ::::weeping::: I'm a CHILD
- For the most part, everyone I hang out with is in a stage of arrested development.
- Every day of the week has a theme associated with it .... "Things Tuesday" "Therapy Thursday" "Mistake Sunday" are all things that real adults do not have in their life.
- Half of my apartment is sponsored by Ikea.
- I can't sustain a wine "collection" because it never lasts that long in my apartment. Whatever enters shall be consumed. And how!
- I still preparty. Even though I can legitimately afford alcohol now.
- I have hosted a keg party in the last 6 months.
- I'm single. No real romantic prospects on the horizon. I'm approaching 30.
- I regularly pass out on friends couches for the evening and/or they pass out on mine. Adulthood means waking up in your bed. Every time.
- I can't keep up with grocery shopping. I basically have string cheese and salsa available every day - anything else is a crapshoot. There is often a strange odor emitting from my fridge due to some form of food that sat in there far passed it's expiration date. Hello 12 month old new potatoes!
- I threw up in a car this year. Twice.
- While I can put items in an orderly area, the deep cleaning rarely happens. Who the eff wants to clean the toilet when you can head to the beach?
10/8/10 update ..... The cleaners just called to say that I've left my clothes there since July. ADULT FAIL.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Gah! I do not want to go to your birthday party
Thoughts I have while reading your birthday party e-mail invitation.
Oooooh EMAIL. I must read it.
Gah, it's YOU. We used to work together. I basically tolerated you but we sat next door. You were like the tofu of coworkers. I didn't mind if you were in the dish but you couldn't hold up on your own. I have made NO EFFORT to see you since I left my old job. THERE IS A REASON FOR THIS. You're not even interesting enough for me to HATE YOU.
Oh dear god and you're now PREGNANT so there will be no wine at your party. Or maybe there will be but you will sit there with your husband all PREGNANTY and stare and judge.
And the party is at some 4 star restaurant in WEST HOLLYWOOD. I will have to PAY OUT MY ASS for this TORTURE.
Look at how nice you are, you also invited MY OLD BOSS WHO I HATE.
STAB STAB STAB STAB HATE HATE HATE HATE
"Please reply by October 5th" ..... yeah right. I will IGNORE YOU FOREVER.
Oooooh EMAIL. I must read it.
Gah, it's YOU. We used to work together. I basically tolerated you but we sat next door. You were like the tofu of coworkers. I didn't mind if you were in the dish but you couldn't hold up on your own. I have made NO EFFORT to see you since I left my old job. THERE IS A REASON FOR THIS. You're not even interesting enough for me to HATE YOU.
Oh dear god and you're now PREGNANT so there will be no wine at your party. Or maybe there will be but you will sit there with your husband all PREGNANTY and stare and judge.
And the party is at some 4 star restaurant in WEST HOLLYWOOD. I will have to PAY OUT MY ASS for this TORTURE.
Look at how nice you are, you also invited MY OLD BOSS WHO I HATE.
STAB STAB STAB STAB HATE HATE HATE HATE
"Please reply by October 5th" ..... yeah right. I will IGNORE YOU FOREVER.
Thoughts I have after your call me to follow up to see why I haven't responded your e-mail about the birthday party.
Gah, it's YOU AGAIN. Ignore ignore ignore. How did you find me???? Why did I give you my phone number????
Ahhhh and you're all pregnant and TRACKING ME DOWN. For the love of god why didn't I just respond to the e-mail. I do not have a valid excuse for ditching the party.
God, I am an awful person. I am ignoring a pregnant woman I used to work with. She is nice and all. I should not be mean. Maybe she has no friends. I can suck it up. I can do it.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I will e-mail and say I am busy.
THE END
End of summer/time to hibernate
So it is FINALLY starting to feel like the seasons have changed in Los Angeles . While I am in general not a fan of the seasons (due to many below zero temperature winters in Chicago ), there is something about the change in atmosphere that signals that time has passed.
In LA, it sometimes feels like every day is the same since for the most part its 75 and sunny outside. This leads to many of my friends basically never growing up since there is no reminder that we’re getting closer to 30.
Anyways. For Angelenos this is starting to feel cold. I mean brrr, shiver, I need a coat cold. For the record, to us that is anything below 65 degrees. And out of nowhere I’ve also been feeling like it’s time to pack up summer, put it in a box and move onto winter. That means the bathing suits, trips to Vegas (note: only summer trips to Vegas are getting packed up since we have trips planned in the winter which will be different. read: no cabanas because it will be too cold), month long ventures into funemployment and general shenanigans. And most importantly, it’s time to pack up my summer behavior with men.
See at the beginning of the summer I had been celibate for 15 months. That’s right FIFTEEN MONTHS. And right around the start of the summer I just caved in. And I kept caving and caving and caving. I was like an anorexic at a cheap Chinese buffet. I just wanted to EAT. And eating felt amazing. I wanted to eat all the time. Regardless of the value of the dish. And now I’m stuffed.
Food just doesn’t look as appealing as it used to. Literally, boys who I used to be attracted to just aren’t getting me going anymore. It’s time for a break. As a good friend stated, “you OD’ed on cheap hamburgers, it’s time for you to take your time and find a quality Bellagio steak.”
So I’m closing up the slut shop! (To the utter dismay of everyone who has been near me over the last few months). And in the mean time, when things get rough I’m going to finally cave in and purchase some assistance. Which means to any girls who know me in the area … time to shop for a rabbit!
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